I've been in a stage of "constant" for over a month. Constant moving. Constant thinking. Constant doing.
I've had some great days. I've been evaluating and remembering.
I've had some awful days. I've been avoiding and crying.
I've been planning and working.
I've been laughing and I've been hurting.
I'm ready for a change. I'm ready to find my new normal.
I'm reminded that when you lose someone, there is a grieving period. I'm still learning what that feels like. I'm learning how to deal. I'm learning how to keep moving from this point even though the hurt is still very real.
So moving forward it is. Fresh look. Adapting to this new way that things are.
Remembering. Smiling. Laughing. Being okay with the waves.
Enjoying my boys. Enjoying my family. Enjoying my friends.
Things will be better. It's finally okay to just stop.